9. Experiences these last few Days

Angels

Dear Reader,

How are you on spirituality? Do you have conversations about it with friends, family? Do you read about it? Do you see your life as a spiritual journey at all?

The concept for some people brings up resistance, the word itself disgust. Which creates a barrier. A threshold for the connection. Its as if saying: up until here we can be friends but after that we can’t anymore.

Which is why I feel mad, angry and sad. I felt a lot of self-doubt to write about this topic over the past two days even though I’ve been receiving loads of signs of encouragement that this is in fact what I should be sharing about. And now that I’m at it I’m quite enjoying it.

Here is a story in case you are doubting whether divine protection is real or not. Because what happened last weekend is so sacred, so incredibly profound yet unlikely when it comes to experiencing life through conventional worldviews, that it might just change your mind about it. You are warned ;) heheh

On Friday night the video that was playing while I was sleeping turned off before it ended, I didn’t notice it because I was already asleep so when it started playing at exactly 02:22 I woke up. Not very bothered I went back to sleep because I could let go of some attachments there and then.

The next day when on the metro to meet a guy I had been seeing every weekend for a month, I encountered a man. We looked into each others eyes and I giggled. We didn’t say a word but the attraction was strong. His stop approached, he got up and walked up to me, gave me his phone and asked for my number. After a quick interaction I typed ‘send me your fav song’ and gave him my number. It was fun. It felt good. And so he left and I smiled.

Little did he know I was on the way to see that guy. And a good thing that was. Because when he send me his song and I told him it reminded me of Michael Kiwanuka he asked what my favorites were from this artist. ‘Cold little heart’ came up, told him, chatted some more and went inside. Intuitively I knew that he was not for me, so I had to end things.

When back home again I saw he added an ice cube and a heart to my then still unknown name. It was a joke but isn’t there a little bit of truth in all jokes? It held true that evening as I actually send a message to the guy that made him reply a blue face. Cold. But no, how could I be that cold if I just told someone else that I had hoped I didn’t come across as cold? It was a gift to receive that joke because it made me conscious of my own behavior, and thus I could change it.

So when you think about relationships in a spiritual way, especially when it comes to intimate ones, you always have the capacity to end them on good terms. Sometimes you just need a little support from an angel to be able to do so, but you can always do it.

An angel yes, and as I write this a video comes to mind where a woman explains the concept that ideas are in your mind for a reason. They are things that want to be manifested into this reality. And if you don’t act on these ideas, they will find another person to be manifested through. It makes sense. Just like some people coming into your life just for a particular reason. For you to learn something, for you to get your heart broken over, for you to feel proud of. All these experiences and emotions can only be felt because we are human. And though we are human, we can be sent into someones live as an angel. Like cute metro guy with his phone number ending in 02:22.

Grateful.

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